Monday, April 07, 2003
wasnt supposed to b home 2nite but my sis wanna come back, so.. here i am again. hahaz.. think i'm kinda hooked up on dis blog thingy. keep wanting to update even though it's filled with only spastic crap, which, im sure, is entertaining enough to make
some pple (u noe who u r. no nid me to list ur names out rite? hahaz) returning to read newer posts :) hahaha
anw, i'v been thinking alot abt some things. i find it q irritating dat pple lyk pple. ya noe wad i mean? (i mean, guys lyking girls and vice versa lah,
toot) it's lyk.. wad the hell is it with pple? sigh.. mayb im not human. dat's q sad, but sumhow, i think i'd rather not b human. -shrugs- and rite, y is it dat pple arent lyk balls which can b passed arnd from 1 person to another? i mean, sumtimes a certain person, A, doesnt lyk/dun deserve/isnt compatible with another person, B, wun it b better fer every1 if A can b passed to another, C, who lyks/derserves/more compatible with A?
confused? den guess wad. u haf a slow brain. bleahs
toked to yq on the bus ride home and she told me stuffs abt jonathan and her. she's still not over him and admitted dat she's v dependent on him. sad case. i dun c wad's there to lyk abt dat guy. he doesnt even care enough fer her. he's probably just keeping yq arnd to fill the empty space in his most-lykly-pathetic love life, while waiting fer sum1 better than yq to song shang men.
jian nan ren. but den again, yq's q a
ben nu ren. haiz.. sad case. told her i dun think jon's gd enough fer her but she said dat even if dis da shuai ge lyks her, she thinks she'll still lyk jon more. bah..
everytime i do some introspection, i seem to get to noe myself better and better (which probably shd b the way when one reflects on himself/herself). seriously, i think i noe myself so well it's q scary. i think i'm q zi yi wei shi, abit judgemental, stubborn, selfish, pessimistic, individualistic, heck care abt most stuffs, not v emotional, practical, easily irritated and pissed (but seldom get really angry though i let anger lead me when my blood boils), blah.. y am i putting myself down lidat? hahaz.. i'm not lah. at least, i dun think i'm putting myself down. just stating facts.. :)
i think lotza pple think i'm quiet just cos i dun lyk tok talk, but the truth is, i think pple in dis world tok too much. they tok more than they listen, which is q senseless. God gaf us 2 ears to listen, but only 1 mouth to tok. so y is it dat pple tok so much? God noes. i dun. i really think dat life is actually q sad.
"i think i'll just curl up and die."
random thoughts at 7:30:00 AM
